F!

FFFFFFFFFF
can stand for many meaning~
but my meaning is NOTHING

我已经没有办法忍耐了
我有我的脾气
我原本就不是个会讨好别人的人
不值得的人更不值得我去讨好
一直以来都在配合，现在不想配合了

我身边的人很会演戏
怎么不去电视台呢？
太浪费了吧～
我是不是该学学呢？
呵，太悲惨了

最近买了面具
可以试试带上
搞不好以后就会不同凡响～

再过几十个小时
2011年就到了
新的一年，会有什么新的事情发生呢?
我希望讨人厌的人永远消失～
希望跟我的姐妹感情越来越好～
希望你们进兵营了也要想到我:)
希望在21时我能面带笑容


=====完=====

Marina Bay, Singapore

have a wonderful Christmas this year with my relative
yeah, we went to Marina Bay
OMG! there were very high class and have beautiful scenery
actually, just like Genting Highland~
*copy copy*

hehe, this is the swimming pool~
don't know use what word to describe this place
at 57 floor of the tower
so if you swim at here, you will feel extremely cold!
that is what happen to me
I keep shivering, that's a bit exaggerating==
and you can see S'pore from a very high place, XD
but, you must be the hotel guest so that you can use the swimming pool
otherwise, you just can see～
luckily, I'm the relative of hotel guest XD

me inside hotel room~

well, there is another place we call 空中花园
quite a nice place and if you have 惧高症, u better don't come here

at the shopping mall~
all branded shop==
argh~! expensive!
many jewellery oh~ hehe
I like diamond^^
but 6000++ dollar~

Merry Christmas!!

Merry Christmas, I give you my heart~

well~
I have do this chocolate for this year Christmas
they said is nice
but I think so so loh~ =p

hehe, this is my cute niece ^^

I have went to church this morning to celebrate Christmas!
wow!
every year I celebrate with jesus :)

my sis

me!!
haha..so excited now!!

tomorrow I'm going to Singapore
Marina Bay I think so..
hehe...happy ING~



erm...
how come leh?
suddenly want to get married=p


=====finish=====

敏儿生日快乐！

hey，敏儿
今天是你的生日呢
两年没有跟你庆祝了
刚去你店找你
你好像很闷酱
应该是生病还没有好吧
我们送的礼物，希望你会喜欢哦
没关系啦，还有明年
明年要一起庆祝哦
:)


==================================

今天一起床
煮了午餐给自己吃
然后就开始整理书本了

哎。。好多书啊
从中一到中五的书
灰尘一大堆，弄到要伤风了
只一大堆，教育展的纸更多
全部整理了，整个地方整齐了很多
看到那么整齐很开心呢^^



我现在好烦哦
整个人的心情很闲
我要消失一阵子了
反正也不会有人来找我
自己办的聚会结果现在很不想去了
我不去了行吗？


=====完=====

今天

哈哈
今天去开会
然后呢
就跟如和欣在CS逛逛一下
我们好像一直出去呢～
然后本来要去la gourmet吃东西
结果没有看见开！
没关系，最后我们决定去chilicious
吃蛋糕～cheese cake！
超好吃的，但是他的东西是贵的
之后本来还想去小巷吃的
结果。。。没有开
闲掉哦，要去哪里哪里都没有开==
那就算了咯
就叫妈妈载我们回家
结果今天是回家收场

回到家
就跟妈妈他们去帅哥老板的店吃:)
哈哈
结果到最后，晚餐我请==
就当作圣诞节晚餐咯～哈哈

回到家
话说今天是冬至
但然要吃汤圆

所以就跟姐姐一起搓汤圆来吃～

有白色，红色和蓝色的汤圆


呵呵～
我把头发绑起来了哦~
要准备留长了～


嗯
今天就这样


=====完=====

21-10-2010♥

Today
3 girls does something meaningful~
hehe

first
we apply nail polish ^^
mine is red on finger nail, silver on toenail
weiru is silver on finger nail, red on toenail
huisin is silver on finger nail, grey on toenail

nice nice nice
I like it :)


then we had our lunch at Ru's house
her kakak cooked for us~
the noodle is delicious~
thanks yah:)


then again
erm....
yesterday me and huisin bought a mask
haha, so today is the time to apply that mask!


actually, the photo is quite funny
just like.............corpse =p
but is pretty corpse~haha XD
but the photo is better than the first we took
so funny, can't stop laughing when i saw it
haha XD


this photo very special
don't knw, just like it cause it seems like a pose
whatever lah~haha

well
one name keep mention today
you know, I know, we know that's enough =p
I also want cactus!!haha XD



erm....
what to said...
I like my life now
I prefer single


=====finish=====

WORK

嗯
这两天在做工
卖Pet Pet的pampers
不错咯
第一天卖了两包
第二天直接卖了十二包
我觉得我很厉害～哈
第一天还在懊恼怎么那么难卖
mammi poko在旁边我根本卖不出去
结果今天就那么好生意
谢谢你们啊～
一起做工的邻居同事
算蛮友善的
很喜欢
虽然一直站在那边很闷，脚也很酸
但就还蛮喜欢的

才发现
微笑可以有那么多情绪和感觉
你可以尽情跟你不认识的人微笑
你可以尽情跟你熟的人一起大笑
但一转身看到你不怎么喜欢的人
你怎么也笑不出
其实我很少跟人微笑
但出来工作后发现
其实跟人家笑一下心情会好起来
但还是要看人的啦～哈

自己做工赚钱养自己
觉得好幸福
现在开始要找自己觉得幸福的事情去做
刚才跟薇如说
总觉得一直以来在为别人而活
以前那么渴望爱情
现在反弹来了
对恋爱和男生觉得反感
拜托不要对我有意思
因为我现在一点兴趣都没有
反而觉得很讨厌
我很喜欢现在的自己
因为我的心里只想着自己
:)

我是负担吧？
我的存在是多余吧？
那我搬出去住好了
放心我会自己照顾自己
我能够去做工作到自己累垮去还房租
我不会再麻烦你们
对你们来说
我什么都不是



也许现在
我不能一直跟你们出去了
原谅我


=====完=====

FINALLY

well
today is not the last paper
but seems like last paper
cause i left the last paper, chinese
study hard also don't knw how to do =p
for those who taking account, jiayou =)

erm...
tomorrow I'm going to interview
WEE~~ seems like this is my first step towards social
soooo excited! but don't knw whether get the job yet
but never mind, its doesn't matter to me
I'm still can doing housework at home:)

tomorrow watch Narnia 3D with my mummy ><
and Friday I'm free,
BUT I want watch my Mr. Mario's movie at home
hahahaha
then Saturday, ZHONGXIANGQING meeting at CS
then Sunday, primary school gathering! wow!
looking forward to see you guys!
don't XIAN QI me cause i become ugly ady :(

then after my last paper on Tuesday
Gambang Water Theme Park waiting for me!!
we must be having a lots of fun there!
looking forward to my all activity~

then...
Merry Christmas!
haha
I like to celebrate Christmas but
I hate chinese new year since this year :(
hate a lots!
get angpow is another matter
but I still hate it :(

k...
time to sleep now
recently study until 4 am just can sleep
now not enough sleep!
bye～


=====finish=====

MARIO

Mr. Mario
I really love this guy lah!!
woo woo woo!

well
last night I watch a movie with my sister
《初恋这件小事》
its a very nice movie
very touching, funny, and loving movie
I keep crying when watching this movie
cry very badly
I was wondering, why I cry so badly?
actually there is nothing for me to cry
I didn't think of that yesterday
just now I think about it
My conclusion is
I suppress my own feelings for a long time
recently exam I have no time to think about everything
but when I watch this movie
I cry cause it is so touching
but when i start to cry
I can't stop
my sister get a shock and said me crazy
yeah, I crazy liao== haha

this is the lucky girl of the story

falling in love with this boy

the girl try hard to become more pretty cause want the attention of this boy
haha
Mr. L go see this movie!
you will like it!

okay
this morning I online
saw this psychological testing(is it the correct word?)
=p
super accurate
haha

I choose no.11
this is my result^^

【11号瓶】一串花朵

你是一个纯洁、单纯、干干净净的一个人

宛如处子一般

像个纯凈的小天使

代表这个瓶子的塔罗牌是“爱欲”

代表你对生命很有多的爱与热情

你的困难与挑战：

你常觉得缺乏爱、缺乏温暖吗?

你在亲密关系中有困难吗?

你有没有想过你可以更爱你自己一些?

你可能是个完美主义者

对自己要求甚高或者对别人要求甚高

由于过往的制约

你对自己或别人有很多的期待

你的未来潜能：

是一个强壮、有威力的人

散发出温暖、温柔和强烈的同理心

是一个真正懂得如何去爱的人

=====finish=====

EXAM

haha
I've been long time not smile like this~
and long time didn't take personal photo
cause to ugly=p

erm..
this is the second week of my SPM
oh god! my feeling is just like very normal
okay, I know what result i deserve later
college or form6?
I'm still considering...

I m looking forward to the coming week!
haha...I have many things to do~
after my BC paper
I'm going to Gambang, Kuantan
after that，
i have my primary school gathering~
haha
bt when i mention bout the gathering
I wish to go, bt I feel very inferior
haiz...pls slap me bah!I'm so stupid thinking like this
AND
after that, I'm going to earn a lots of money!
I want to buy the things that I want to buy
and the most important things is
I want to lose my weight ==
Ishh!! I will make it become true this time
pls pls pls believe in me @.@

well~
I found that EMO is very popular now~
everyone is emo sometimes, including me
haiz...
I want to get rid of this bad habit!

next week, chemistry and biology paper~
Mr Kung wish me good luck! haha
and I have to study hard liao~

tomorrow jogging with my sista^^
and have breakfast with them~
see you guys tomorrow yeh~
haha
bye~


=====finish=====

I said

现在流行emo?
你也来搞？
很好，我现在的心情也是这样

嗯
考了一个星期的SPM
只能说，就那样咯
跟平常考试没两样
今天可以好好睡觉了 :)
下个星期继续加油！

昨天四点睡
我发梦了
梦到了一个如果是以前会让我很伤心的梦
但是现在
这个梦让我更加确定
我一点感觉都没有
一切都要过去了
我在等待未来
我憎恨现在

她说
很悲伤的歌
我很喜欢
叶子也很喜欢
所以我更喜欢
下次不要在我面前批评我喜欢的人
因为我会因为这样而记仇
因为这样
我都选择沉默了
希望的就是听到别人保持沉默


憎恨


=====完=====

变

SPM前最后一篇文章
现在的心情，很复杂，很不安
我根本不把考试当一回事
走一步算一步吧

最近的心情
很糟糕
更糟糕的是
我根本不知道自己怎么了
一直忍住的眼泪总有掉下来的一天
哭过就没事了，我告诉自己
亲情，友情，爱情
现在对我来说，只是零
我根本没有办法相信任何一方
我再也找不到当初的温暖
是我太小孩子吗？
当初生病的时候是我自己照顾自己
没有生病的人却得到你的爱心问候
那我算什么？


失去信心
失去安全感
失去能依靠的人
失去能信任的人
是要告诉我凡事还是靠自己
偶尔 偶尔
我也想被照顾
但我已经再也找不到了

慢慢的
我看清很多事
看清很多的人
人的本性，只有到做错事才知道
呵，我看清了

我早就已经内伤了
根本没有办法痊愈
有些事情想起了，无法释怀
发誓一定会加倍奉还
有些人
我非常珍惜
发誓一定会永远珍惜

我的负面已经强过正面思想
快疯了
我不会再告诉别人了
不会了


=====完====

Majlis Abadi di Sanubari

嗯
哈哈
我们的毕业典礼！
wow!很开心
拍了很多照片～
我们的主题，黑白系列
5A damn cool!!

我的老师
刚开始时很不喜欢他
而且很怕他
可是慢慢觉得他真的是一位很棒的老师
daun要相信我～哈哈

哈哈
我很开心因为他add我是他的sibling
这样讲很傻我知道～
不过就是很开心哦！haha
你很帅啦～

呵呵
我们三个，不同pattern～

5A 女生～

5A男生～

蕙欣很抢镜头，因为他最特别的说～

哇色，我很喜欢这张照片咯
下次放我的profile pic 噢～
很有feel~哈哈

呵呵呵呵呵～
真的是美到～
我们要记得写那个卡！还没有写到～

家定，你也很帅啦
我哪里有ignore你～哈哈

我和俊豪

我和铭顺
谢谢你送的花啦～有吓到～哈哈

嗯，是他要我勾他手的～
哈哈

我们同公司的～
gary的脸很emo咯～


哎呀呀
riddick逼我写他，哈哈，没有啦
我发现到你穿马来装不错看噢～
下次可以考虑穿出去了～
我没有很敷衍噢，我很用心写的。
哈哈，给你赚到，一直左拥右抱～

wow!
这张也是很酷！
超好看的～

哈哈哈哈哈哈
我很强大，去跟他拍照
他超帅的啦！

这张我拍的！
好看叻～当然啦，我几会抓角度
哈哈
帅的啦！

好吧
就这样

=====完=====